Bye

Hi everyone
So yeah...
Sadly this is the end of my ranting weirdo blog
I'm getting more serious with my studies and I never even had time with this blog
I'm sorry
But don't give up ya know
Thanks for all the views and support from around the world a bit

Well...Good BYe BLOG
-Cyan

Worse Mistake

Hi Everyone....Yay....I'm back.....
Right now I'm low in spirit because I did the most fucked up thing and now I lost two friends. So..... Well I moved on from the first but the recent one.... Yeah she wants nothing to do with me now....Shit am I right? Like Cyan, come on, did you really act like such a dick. Why yes Reader I did. I gave my sis my part of our necklace since she was going to do it too, I just bought it before her. I feel too depress to make any happy and up going posts for you guys, I'm sorry for that. Also the fact I'm rarely on anymore because of school. Well....I just kicked another best friend out of my life no matter how kind and understanding they tried to be. Guess I have more time to talk to you guys...... Hey, a word of advice from a asshole like me. No matter how much you are insecure, don't go to a internet person, go to your best friend. Never fight so much with them because if they are close to you, you would look at them like family.  You could be dead tomorrow or lose someone in a minute. Life is that cruel. Take the words seriously.

Be careful of what you want

because

If you

Push people away because you want to be alone...

You'll end up alone

but want the company you had

To my friend if you still can see these posts
I don't hate you for your decisions 

and I am sorry

You didn't get someone better

Who didn't take you for granted

-You know who I am my old Friend

Hey There...

Hey There...
I just want to tell someone...anyone actually who's out there and listens to me. Life can be hard but the point of that to have you over come it and become a better person. I'm talking about depression and the suicide many of us go through. I'm not a therapist and I might not know you well. I wish I would be there for you to lean on but we can't have everything. It's hard and you feel like nothing is worth shit anymore. I feel exactly like you might have. This always happens to people over bullies, heart breakers, scars, or even our own parents or family. It's a lie to say everything will be okay and you'll be happy soon. The fight is harder than any war in history because no matter how many people you have on your side, you will still have that fight by only you. Go ahead. I am just like you, there's no judgement. You can cry, you can let all that you want to say out and just be at peace. Look at your hands. What will you do with them. Make a noose for you or holding on to photos to show your own generation? I'm not here to make you choose living instead. I'm talking about this so you know what will happen. You will have no pain and be at peace. No more pressure to be the perfect material for others, no more tears, and no more being restless. However everything is with a cost. Your pain will reflected onto the ones you love and you watch from up above as they cry over your cold body. You will never be able to tell some people things you hid deep inside, you won't be able to hug your family in a warm embrace again, You can never go back after it happens. Your unbreakable when you stand against all the crap you take and you make your life better. You make your parents see the path you want, you speak up, you prove you are a true fighter and you just won a battle of your life.

So the option is yours

If you still want to go through with it
and walk off or pull the trigger
Go Ahead
I will support with anything you decide to do
Because I know
You are doing what is the best for you
In your eyes

-Cyan

Music

I'm sorry if you really hate this but I couldn't help it. I was laughing and smiling because I found songs recently that I can't help but say: We should learn from this People


SONGS

I hope (River flows in you) Remix by Bostin
Share the Love by John Cozart
Little Game by Benny
Everyone is Gay by A Great Big World

ect. I'm too tired to look through ALL my songs but I want you
to go through your music or find some and actually think about the lyrics
and how it's like a hidden lesson in it
hahaha bringing this to school
whoops!

Oh and the gay song I found recently and I have no idea how it happened. Hahaha here's the Lyrics

* By the Way, If you have something against gay people go complain somewhere else! We are making people smile here, not sad*

A GREAT BIG WORLD
Everyone is Gay

If you're gay then you're gay
Don't pretend that you're straight
You can be who you are any day of the week
You are unlike the others
So strong and unique
We're all with you

If you're straight well that's great
You can help procreate
And make gay little babies
For the whole human race
Make a world we can live in
Where the one who you love's not an issue

'Cause we're all somewhere in the middle
And we're all just looking for love to change the world
What if the world stops spinning tomorrow?
We can't keep running away from who we are

If you're gay then you're gay
If you're straight well that's great
If you fall in between that's the best way to be
You've got so many options
Every fish in the sea wants to kiss you

Awwww...

'Cause we're all somewhere in the middle
And we're all just looking for love to change the world
What if the world stops spinning tomorrow?
We can't keep running away from who we are

And we're all here in it together
We're one step closer to breaking down the walls
Everyone is gay

Short Notice

Yay school! ugh up at 4 againnnnnn...-.- Anyway sorry I skip some days but I'll continue if I'm not wiped out from school. Hopeful I'll have time besides holiday's and weekends to make this blog more demented for your entertainment and fun.

soo uh tomorrow I'm testing out my posting skills and working out how to get pictures up here so wait a bit could you until I finalize the post. That way you actually get to see something! C:
So See you tomorrow!!!

Hello Shy/Timid People

Hello to all you Shy or Timid people!

       I'm Cyan from my blog of course which you are reading! I am doing this week challenge and hope you find what you wanted on this blog other wise you wouldn't of clicked it of course! So you have a hard time talking to people right? I know how you feel. I feel nervous and sick talking in front of a crowd like for book talks or in the Talent show. Some people would think your stuck up because you don't talk when your just shy but don't listen. It's scary meeting new people and places but good friends will always be around to help you! All you have to do is say "Hello" or even a "Hi" or "Hey"! You don't have to start off talking right off the bat, you can say hello each time you past each other and take it slow getting to know them. You may not believe it but you have courage inside of you and just close your eyes. Relax for a moment. Imagine you can or did do what you thought you couldn't. Then do it! As long as you believe in your self and do hard work you can do anything! Make friends, stand up to someone pushing you around, or going through a book talk in front of the class. Things can be scary for us all but they can be sooo worth it at the end. For example when you are about to walk up for the talent show to preform it can be nerve wracking of course. You almost want to back out but then they call you and you step out into the spot light to perform. After you do people clap and someone actually is blown away so don't doubt. After you finish and go back smile. You should smile, it's scary and you just pass a fear of yours. It's weird as heck but smile and go ahead and laugh at your self. Later on you will look back and trust me, we all would be laughing at our pasts. I wanted to enter the talent show before, I had 3 whole years of middle school to enter but I was too scared. Scared of people laughing, being horrible, and making a fool of my self. Each time I was close to entering but I always stopped at the last second and backed away. I never took a risk and enter and now I'm moving on regretting that I never took the chance because talents are meant to be shown and shared so everyone can see and be inspired. That would also help the person with the talent to see what path is worth while for them. I missed my chance but will I be down on this? OF COURSE NAW!!! That would be absolutely ridiculous! I missed that chance but there are many more opportunities to have another go. You do too! It feels so good to pass a fear of yours, it's not instant and some take time but its good for you. Not only to you pass your fear, you realize and learn from it. Go ahead buddy! Even shy people can have moments of courage and speak up! No one goes unnoticed because trust me on this, someone always sees you every day. It may be one glance or a lot but you being around is enough for them. Speak up and say your opinion! Take a deep breath and risk it! Believe in your self! Don't give up! You are noticed and not a stuck up brat! You can do it! Okay? Think about this ok? C:

Cyan from Idiotic Things in Life

School

One more day till school....Gosh Summer came by so fast! What to do.... I'm surprise some of you guys actually take time to look at this. Almost 2,000 views in all! I should make this the best post ever right? It's looking ok soo.. uhhh



BLANK SPACE AND I WON'T WRITE MY 

NAME

XD

Hmmm... Well have a nice school year guys I'm going to go give up posting for now and hide from my sis who's walking round in VERY high heels. YOU CAN STAB SOMEONE WITH THOSE THINGS!